“Where is Johny???”
Running wild
with his jacket lying on the grass, as if he felt free from the frozen world
and wanted to fly high to touch the shy. The sky unlimited, full of dreams. I
had just came down to sit to have my lunch in the park, in the first spring of
the year… felt the chirping on the birds, the flowers out, stretching out to
show their faces full of fragrance… Many folks already playing cards and such
so basking in the sun, the sun so been a teaser for the last few months and
would be so angry for the coming months, but despite all these being at the
helm of trying to outdo each other, it was little Johny who got my attention….
Maybe for the simple reason, he wasn’t looking at me, an established businessman,
wearing an Expensive suit and the Rolex watch, perfect times... His free flow
of flying around and kissing every beauty, from the flowers to the air to the
folks playing cards to the couple so entangled in romance by the bush… Or maybe
I didn’t why, and to know how, this curiosity made him the hero for the moment,
the moment I wanted to sit peacefully and have my sandwich and flaunt the
thought, my parents got to be so proud of their child, traveling the world,
making money, money the world so now….
Sandwich…
yes, I think he made me realize that my life and for the matter the life of all
around is like a sandwich, all bound together within the two breads of life and
death and waiting to be eaten up and hoping it tastes good… but then what was
he, why can’t I figure out Johny in there… have I lost my senses or am I too
drenched in the struggle so around that have gone stupid… was I in the phase of
depression and seeing all this with bewilderment??? Shook my head and poured
the sauce from the packet so along, and as I made my first bite, the first
thing I tasted was the sauce…. Wait a minute… could Johny be the sauce???
Naa I have
gone stupid… and along sipped my coffee…. Wait a minute could Johny be the
coffee???
Damn… I’m
sure getting scary for my life… and turned my back towards Johny… I’m for sure
wasting my precious time… Time that is Money… And as I smiled, a young girl
just passed by returning the smile… Yeah this is life… Life full of passion and
Desire… I’m desirous to life… The life so around… Life I can afford, can buy
the luxuries… Luxuries my Money can buy… As I was about to take my next bite…. A
ball came and hit my feet…
No… No it
could not be happening… that was Johny’s ball, the ball he was playing with…
why it came to me, why now, when I had turned myself away from his world… why
my so complicated beautiful and powerful world of money was feeling threatened…
I should crush this ball… its spoiling my sandwich… my coffee… my Spring… yes
Johny has no right to Spring out at this moment… wait, I will turn around and
shout at him… He has no right to enter my life… yes I will threaten him, maybe
sue him… Yes… He is the terrorist in my life… Yes he is, he has terrorized my
Spring… This moment… The moment I have bought for myself…. Thinking so with
anger I turned around….
What…. wait… what… no… no no no… Wait it can’t be
true… Where is Johny???
Where did he
go… why did he go… He has done it again, he has taken my right to be angry to
scold to shout to… to slap him to thrash hi, for terrorizing my moment,,, Yes
he is the Terrorist…. O God what is happening… I’m going crazy… no… I’m crazy… I’m
an idiot… a fool making fool of people every moment… no I’m… wait but where is
Johny??? I have to find him… find him to know… but he is just a small child…
what can he tell me??? Never mind… I have to find him….
Got up and left
my Sandwich and tea there, just the ball in my hand… Johny’s ball… my palm sweating,
holding it… No… no no… Now his ball is making me sweat… Why… O God… How I wish
Johny be Ok… What… O yes he better be ok for me to scold him, to kill his
freedom…. Freedom I had bought… Yes I have bought….
Just as I reached
along the roadside, saw a taxi zooming away… Johny was in it… He had tears… Oh
no… They have taken my Johny away from me… Who are they… are they kidnappers…
What am I thinking… Yes they may be kidnappers… Wait, that old man is there who
is waving to that car… Such a filthy looking old man… He maybe the kingpin of
child molesters, kidnappers… Let me call the police and get him arrested… He
has kidnapped my Johny….
The old man
turned… Oh no he has seen me… Don’t worry I’m young will over power him… What
if he has the gun… O my… I better call the police… O no… he has seen me… he is
walking towards me… what should I do… where should I run… No… I can’t run… I
should act as if I know nothing… Yes be calm… I have to be calm… But how can I…
he is walking towards me… I have to face him… Ok… Ok… Ok… Let me face him…
Wait a
minute he has tears in his eyes… What… maybe I’m seeing not right… No… these
are tears… He is in front of me…. Looking at me… Ok Ok Ok… I’m also looking
back at him… let me smile… yes I need to smile…. The old man is looking at my
hand… O God… he has seen the ball… Johny’s ball… Damn… stupid me… now I’m
exposed… what should I do… He is raising his hand… O God he is gonna hit me… I
have to run… But my body is frozen… as if frozen with fear…
The old man
has taken the ball from me… and smiles… wiping his tears… and looks at me… I
better ask him where is Johny… O God I can’t speak… I’m all frozen… God Help me…
they are gonna kill Johny.. or cripple him… Help me God… Help Johny… Old man is
speaking… I can’t hear him… No I gotta concentrate and hear him…. Yes I can
hear him…
My son has
been promoted and transferred to the other city… they had a flight now… Johny
was crying for the ball… He will come back in winter vacations again… Hopefully
he will remember his ball… Thank You Sir…
Saying so he
took the ball and left… I still can’t walk or talk or anything… But for sure,
this family is a terrorist family… They have robbed me of everything and
terrorized my life… They have taken away my Johny… The Johny I wanna kill so…
has been taken away from me… The Rolex has stopped ticking… The suit can’t
cover me… I’m stark naked… I have earned nothing… I can buy nothing… I have
lost my Johny… Johny so I wanna kill…
Where is
Johny????